What Convinced Me of the Spiritual Cosmos Print
Wednesday, 29 October 2008 15:47
I would like to tell my story of what convinced me that the nature of the Universe is spiritual.

My doubts

God the GeometerI grew up being a Christian, although my father was an atheist after suffering from abuse going to a Catholic school. My father was a programmer and I grew up to be one too, so in our family we learned logic at an early age and there was always a significant interest in mathematics and sciences. I was always a little wary of the Christian teachings, trying to believe in them but not really being able to. I thought they were good ethical guidance, but I could never really believe that the Bible was an accurate historical account. I was stuck in “Doublethink”. I wanted to believe that God existed but also believed in science and logic and subconsciously knew that the two contradicted. Finally in my 20s I admitted to myself that they were contradictory and that the true nature of the Universe could simply not be exactly as suggested by the Christian teachings.

On the other hand, I could not accept that we lived in a materialistic Universe either, and that death was the end of our existence. So I started looking for clues about whether life continues after death. In philosophy class I put out the idea that Descartes’ statement: “I think, therefore I am” could be an indicator of eternal life. My thinking was that if I exist through my thought, then why should that ever end?

My first discoveries

ReincarnationI continued my search by reading many stories of near-death experiences and people remembering their past lives. I found that quite convincing, also because science has never come up with an - at least to my mind - convincing explanation why it all should be just a hallucination. There were just too many stories with similar accounts of the afterlife. I found it unlikely that our brain chemistry would by chance cause this similarly for so many people.

I had several dreams in which I had predicted the future, so I was also interested in paranormal phenomena. Being a science-fiction fan since childhood I was interested in UFOs as well. I found it quite vexing though that apparently mainstream science would not seriously investigate either of these topcis. Both types of phenomena have many credible witnesses. I also thought that Quantum Physics should be an indicator that that the paranormal is possibly real.

I carried these ideas for many years, namely that there probably is life after death, our souls reincarnate many times on Earth, and that paranormal phenomena and UFOs probably are real. I even devised my own logical proof that something like a God must exist. But it would not all fit really together. What bothered me especially was the apparent disinterest by so many other people to even investigate these topics. I thought: “If I can figure this out, then why can’t other people, too?“

My awakening

the Great SealThen in April 2006 I discovered the truth behind 9/11. I was floored and shocked. I thought to myself: “If this is true, then I want to know what else in my life is a lie.” I spent the entire weekend without sleep or food reading websites and watching videos on the Internet about various “conspiracy theories”. Suddenly a dream that I had years before made sense to me. I had dreamed that I lived in a trailer home in a vast wasteland that was covered by a wide grid of giant pyramids. At the top of each pyramid was a great eye, which emitted radio waves, causing an atmosphere of dread and suppression. This symbolized to me that there was a conscious effort in the world to keep the people from finding out the spiritual nature of the Universe. If the world namely embraced the concept of a spiritual Universe then our problems with war, disease and poverty would quickly disappear, as well as the need to have a small group of people in power! So obviously this isn't in their interest.

I suddenly knew why paranormal phenomena find such little regard in the sciences and the mass media. I realized that many of the “New Age”-people, whom I previously considered to be a little crazy, were probably onto something, and why they too were held in such disregard. So I read more and more on these topics and finally everything started to make sense to me.

Bill Hicks summed it up best with: “Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Here’s Tom with the weather.”

The more I follow down my spiritual path the more evidence I find and the less contradictions I have in my world-view. As a person who places great value in logic, having a contradiction-free world-view that explains all the phenomena is immensely satisfying to me. This is the main reason for me to believe that the alternative world-view is true.

I also find that my intuition has grown stronger and that I often experience sychroniciticies. One of my latest experiences has been a week with Dr. Greer on one of his “ambassador to the Universe” trainings in Mount Shasta where I saw UFOs in the sky and balls of light in the trees. Another very concrete piece of evidence to me is the Egely wheel. I have bought one and can see firsthand the spiritual energy (also known as subtle energy, biofield, ether, qi, prana, etc.).
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